updated fall

So to keep everyone updated about what has been going on for me – I did not get the job with YFC. I found out last Wednesday. To say that I was disappointed is sort of an understatement.  I was pretty certain up until that point that I was going to get the job and that God was really calling me to that position.  I guess God had other ideas. J

For the very near future (the next two weeks) I am going to be at the camp still finishing up any office work and whatever other work they find for me to fill my time.  I am very grateful for this opportunity to have something to do for the next little while.  People keep asking me what is happening next for me and I give them the answer of ‘I’m at camp for two more weeks and then I am unemployed again’.  I say this all with a smile on my face but deep down it does scare me a little bit.

I have been looking online for job postings and I plan to hand out resumes in Brandon on Saturday but the unknown is still very scary.  I am trying to put all my faith and trust in God that He will bring me to the job that He has in mind and planned for me, however, it is difficult at times to see where He is bringing me.  I know in my heart that God has a plan for me but my head is trying desperately to make me believe that He doesn’t.  I know that these are lies from the Evil One and that I cannot let him get a foothold in my life and I pray that God will continue to show me His plan for my life and protect my thoughts from the Evil One.

Another thing that is going on for me right now is school.  I am currently taking one class (which starts this evening) at school that I have to drive in for every Monday.  I am really excited for this opportunity to continue with my schooling and being one step closer to being done my degree.  I know that it is going to be a lot of work and that it isn’t going to be easy but I am very excited about it and I know that God will give me the strength to get through it and do it well. J

Well that was the blog that I was going to post this morning, and I would have to if the bosses didn’t decide to have their meeting – that I was sort of a part of –  right after I finished typing it up.  So instead I waited to post and things have already changed.  Right before lunch the director of U-turn called and told me that they decided that they were going to hire for the position I had interviewed for and asked me if I was still interested in the position. After I told him that I was still very interested he told me to get in touch with the program developer to go over some details.  I called him shortly after and we set up a meeting for tomorrow afternoon.  God is doing amazing things and I am so blessed to call Him my Lord and Saviour!  I praise God for the work that He is doing in my life and how he is showing me His plans!

ramblings on the fall

The summer is coming to a close and that means, for a lot of people, including myself, that changes are right around the corner.  For the past five years (and before that if you count when I was still in high school) the end of the summer meant getting ready to return to school.  This year I am sort of returning to school, but not full time like I have in the past.  Since I only have five courses left to finish I am doing them as I can, which means I also am looking for employment.  This is a scary thing for me to do because up until this point the only jobs I have had were either part time or something that was temporary so it was never a big deal about where I was working.

As I look for some place to work I really want to be able to use at least some of the skills that I have acquired at school and I also want to please my Heavenly Father with the job that I choose.  I desperately want to live in God’s plan for my life and I am so thankful that I can run to Him and through prayer and His Word I can hear Him speak to me.  I am also grateful that He is so willing to guide me where He wants me to be. 

I badly want to be doing God’s work in this world and I know that He has prepared a work for me to, whether it is in an established mission field, or out on the street somewhere, where people would say I am just a part of the secular world.  I know that everything I do in my life is a part of His mission and I truly hope that I can live out my life that others also see that work being done.  I have spent the last (almost) four whole months working in a ministry and I have had great opportunity to show God’s love to the people who come here, but sometimes I wonder if that is really what I am to be doing.  Let me clarify that statement, because I know that I am to be showing God’s love to the people around me and I do strive to do just that (I also know that I frequently fail at this, but I’m a work in progress J).  However, I sometimes wonder how much more of a ministry I could have if I weren’t working somewhere where it is expected that the Bible and God’s love is taught.  When people come to the camp the fact that it is called Valley View Bible Camp should tip them off to the fact that we are all about God and the Bible.  If I were working at a restaurant or as a receptionist somewhere people would not expect me to be living my life for God but they would be able to notice that there is something different about me (hopefully, anyway) and that would be living out God’s love.

That is a lot of rambling but it is a little bit about what is on my heart.  The other thing that is on my heart is the possibility of a job that I have applied for.  For the past month and a half I focused on looking for jobs specifically in the social work (and even more specifically Child and Family Services) field and I sent a few resumes off to agencies and waited to see if I would hear anything back from them.  I still hadn’t heard anything at the end of last week and I was talking with my boyfriend about what the fall was possibly going to look like and I mentioned that I thought I should maybe start looking at other options as well as the social work stuff that I had already ‘applied’ to.  He thought this was a good idea and so I went online and started looking.  On Saturday night/Sunday morning I wrote an email to the director of YFC in Brandon for a position as a life skills coach.  I have since filled out the application and returned it to YFC and the director has even emailed me about it already and wants to meet with me.  This is really exciting for me and I hope that I am following God’s will with the decision to apply for this position.

So, for all you who are reading this, I would ask that you would join with me in praying that God’s will be done with this job opportunity and that wherever it is that I wind up in the fall that I can glorify Him in all that I do. J

Blind Faith

It has been a long time since I last even thought about blogging, or journalling, or documenting what is going on in my life in any way. However, there have bee some pretty big changes in my life in the last little while and it seems like a great time to start writing again.

For the last three and a half years I have been pursuing a career in the field of social work. I have been in school with a BSW as my end goal and things were going pretty well. That is until this last semester. As I continued through my social work classes I continued to see areas in my life where I needed to figure stuff out before I could help others solve their own problems. I spent a lot of time thinking and praying about what I should do about this little dilemma. Needless to say that this previous semester was really difficult for me to put effort into my classes because I wasn't sure if I should be at Booth or if I should be somewhere else, pursuing something else.

Near the end of the semester I received my answer, I should not finish my social work degree right now. This was one of the scariest thoughts I've had in my life, I mean I have spent a lot of time and money working towards this degree and I was going to be graduating in April. What did it mean that God was telling me to put my BSW on hold. After I received this answer I needed to know what I should be doing instead. Should I take some time off of school and work? Should I go to school somewhere else and study something else? What am I supposed to do? Thankfully God answered these questions for me as well.

I am returning to Providence for one semester to receive a BA in social sciences with a focus on psychology and sociology. Prov is where I started my education back in 2008 and it will be great to graduate from there in April. Yes, I am still graduating in April, which is great. God really worked out all the details that were scaring me about making this new decision. God even helped me to tell my parents about my choice in person, instead of being a coward and doing it over the phone as I had originally planned.

Now that I have trusted God through all of these changes in my life with nothing but blind faith I need to have the same blind faith to trust that somehow I will have the funds I need to pay for school and continue living at my apartment in the city. Faith is not always easy, it is not always my first instinct but it is what I need to cling to for everything.